That nudge from God. It wasn’t just to reach out to you. I also heard Him say that I should think of you more than a friend. This to me was surprising because I don’t think I’ve ever seen you this way. 

In fact, when I visited ———- in the Bay Area two months before we met up, I told them that when I was in my 20s, there was someone I cared about a lot and I was considering reaching out to her. They said your name and I said no. I’ve always cared about you, now looking back. Every time you has a breakup, it really made me sad for you. 

I didn’t want to tell you this part before because I didn’t want you to think I was making it up. I know people say all the time that God told them this and told them that, to justify all sorts of behavior. So I waited to tell you. I think there have been other clues along the way that reinforced that it was really Him. He didn’t say I would date or marry you, what I mentioned was all I heard. 

But I will follow this in faith. At the end of the day, I also know that all human love is imperfect and will disappoint. Only God’s love is perfect and true. And although this is so difficult at times to comprehend and believe because He is invisible and not tangible, it is still more reliable than anything our there. 

 But it’s you. 

You’re the one on my heart.

Beautiful broken you.